Solo 5G Ghost Journey

On Sunday, October 2nd at 7pm I ate 5 grams of Ghost psilocybin strain. This was the most intense, powerful journey I've been on yet.

All of my 5 gram trips have been this year (4 total), my first was in January of 2022. I'll write about that in another post which I'll link here. This trip with the Ghost strain was particularly the most powerful. I begin all of my journeys with journaling an intention, for this I journaled four intentions: humble, divine, focus & clarity. All four intentions manifested in their own way. I strongly suggest choosing one or two intentions as this was a lot to take on. I decided on a playlist by artist Jon Hopkins titled "Music for Psychedelic Therapy" (this can be found on Spotify)

The timeline of this experience lasted from 7pm (when I ate the mushrooms) to 4am. I did not get much sleep, if any.

7:00-7:30pm - Ate the mushrooms, which I prepared in a bar of about 20g ceremonial cacao. Right after ingestion I laid down on my bed, & put on a meditation by Boho Beautiful via YouTube. During the meditation I focused on taking deep belly breaths to relax the parasympathetic nervous system. The meditation was 15 minutes long, and by the end of it I felt the mushroom beginning to work. I put on the playlist by Jon Hopkins & laid in corpse pose on my bed. The first serge of energy was a rush of an anxiety like emotion up to my heart center: My interpretation of this sensation was that of my body responding to the sudden change- its a similar feeling I get when submerging into an ice bath. When this emotion surfaced I began to take deep breaths again to release it. It quickly released and my body fell into a sensation of bliss.

7:30pm-8:00pm: I had no concept of time minus the fact that the album I was playing was one hour & I had a slight sense of awareness of when It started at the top again.

While laying in corpse pose, every emotion and sensation in my body began to melt away. An energy was cleansing my body of fear, anxiety, stress, etc. I felt weightless and at complete peace. I felt a serpent energy run up my leg. " Historically, serpents and snakes represent fertility or a creative life force. As snakes shed their skin through sloughing, they are symbols of rebirth, transformation, immortality, and healing." One of the first experiences I had once the mushrooms started to kick in was with a higher being/God. (I'm going to refer to all encounters with higher beings as God when feasible to help simplify the matter as all coming from the source of One) Ever since I was a child, I asked myself "why am I here"; I never truly felt like I belonged in this world. In this experience, it was as if my higher self was showing me this incredible display: The question was first repeated back to me "You've wanted to know why you're here" - the feeling I've felt in my heart as a child squeezed with anticipation of finally finding out some clues to this question. I saw myself creating myself for this world. I was shown that the exact avatar that I am, I signed up to be before I came here. I created myself in the exact likeness of who I am. I was shown that I would come to this earth, and forget who I am, that I knew all of this before incarnating. I wasn't able to conceptualize much but rather to accept what I was shown. I've always believed God created all of us to be exactly who we are, in every way, shape and form. The God I saw, was a higher set of being- a sort of formless being of pure light. My pure light self, chose specifically to come to this earth in this exact human form, all in which I made myself. Myself being the pure oneness of God before my incarnation and even now.

8:00-9:00pm- After this message, the playlist by Jon Hopkins took me on an absolutely incredible journey. I could feel each song tingle and awaken every cell in my body. Each song in the album had a completely unique feel of its own and it was quite amazing to feel my body react so peacefully to each song. My eyes were closed and about 3 or 4 times I experienced a bright white light forming at my heart center. This white light formed from the darkness deep within me, and it made me realize I am made of light inside. I laid in corpse pose for about an hour while this playlist went through. I know this because the playlist ends with a Ram Das meditation and by the time it got there & the final song had ended I had transitioned out of corpse pose and was moving around more on my bed. I allowed the album to restart from the beginning.

9:00-10:30pm- The album restarted from the beginning at this point - time started moving extremely fast- I was getting message and message one faster than the next. When transitioning out of corpse pose I remember sitting up on my bed and looking toward my window, for whatever reason a lot of the light was coming from the window area of my room. I was completely overcome with the intense feeling of love, abundance and prosperity. My guides, God kept telling me, "the time is now. its all happening now. we are the ones. this is it. this is it!" I felt love on such a grand scale that I could actually feel it vibrating through my room, it was a currency all of its own. I felt as though I could survive off of this vibration. This love is a frequency that all of us light beings are connected to, we're all broadcasting our light and love into this world at such a grand scale. Think of the population amount increasing each day, as the population increases more and more hearts open up to the truth of love. Sparks of white light flashed and appeared during this ecstatic dance of pure bliss. This currency of love is always available to us, the way it had shown itself to me was an act of divinity in of itself. Earlier in the day my daughter and I went to a birthday party. The party was in a horse barn, during my trip it hit me and I realized how incredibly special the event was. At the party there was a newborn child, children of all ages, adults & grandparents. Coming together in that type of environment felt so wholesome. The amount of love that was shared in that beautiful moment had me crying out in gratitude for quite a bit.

After sitting with the message of outpouring love & abundance I laid back down on my bed. This is when my experience transitioned into more of a divine dance with my being, or God. I began to stretch and reach my body in all directions. With each stretch I felt an orgasmic bliss bursting through my entire soul. There was so much gratitude all around me for the divine feminine. The sensation was actually more ecstatic than an orgasm, it was such a high state of bliss and divine union with God. I felt a reflection of life before we were ever human, when we were amoeba. The great appreciation for how long it took evolution to evolve into the divine beings that we are today. This is quite astounding as I could actually feel evolution in my soul & I am quite sure evolution from amoebas is verified within the science realm. "Single-celled amoebae were an early form of life on Earth that evolved in the sea." I've also always felt like I was an aquatic animal at one stage of my evolution. The webbed fingers, I also have reoccurring dreams of being in the ocean with whales in which I feel very at home. Moving on, I felt an Egyptian type presence around me as well. When I looked up, my ceiling was painted gold - a friend of mine told me seeing Golden light is often a being of much higher dimension who is downloading new DNA into us offering a conscious expansion -which I felt.

This currency of love is always available to us

When I transitioned out of the golden light stage, I entered into a realm of complete and utter gratitude. I got off my bed and got on my hands and knees on my floor and couldn't stop saying thank you. I likely said thank you for a full 30-45 minutes straight. I got back onto my bed and sat in an upright position with my legs crossed and both of my hands created prana mudra. "Prana in English means energy or life. It is a sacred hand gesture or 'seal,' used during yoga and meditation practice as a means of channeling the flow of vital life force energy known as prana. Prana Mudra links the heart and soul and makes you feel alive." I have no idea how long I sat like this with Prana Mudra, I'm guessing maybe 5-10 minutes at most.

From here, I started to see rainbows of light pouring out of my dresser. I then again stood up, and put my hand out as if the palm of my hand was absorbing these rainbows. To me, the rainbow light symbolizes the pure manifestation of the higher love consciousness that is on this planet. The light itself being an energetic force that is here to serve and awaken us. My family has been tied to rainbows for as long as I can remember. My Grandfather used to be called "George Rainbow" because of the amount of light he emanated. After doing a bit of research and study I found that there is actually a group of children called the Rainbow Children. This is children born around the 2000's but they started being born as early as the 1990's. This is similar to the Indigo children. "They are higher dimensional beings from perhaps the ninth dimension and convey pure love. As odd as this may sound, it is their first Earth incarnation, and here to generate unconditional love and play an essential role in the New Earth as they get older." I know I made contact with the light of the rainbow children, however I'm still integrating and processing to see if I am one.

10:30-11:30pm: At this point, the album had again come to some kind of end. The last song with Ram Das began to cycle thru again. In this song, Ram says "You're not who you think you are." It felt as though he was actually in my room saying this to me. I had to pause the music and from then on the rest of the night was no music. I fell into a loop at this point- a loop in which everything I tried to attach myself to would dissolve and become nothing. I was experiencing thoughts and emotions so suddenly it felt as though I was in an infinite space of eternity. I remember feeling like I would never see the sun rise again, that I was just stuck in this space of nothing being real. (Keep in mind, this is extremely hard to put into words) at one point, I remembered I had ate mushrooms, at another point I had become aware that I was in a loop. I believe its safe to say that I became aware of some sort of observer then which helped bring me down..maybe. It did help in a small way, however not really as time and space were both completely collapsed in front of me. Even when I tried to think of my daughter, she was just another creation of me (God) which was the ultimate One. I felt a little alone in that sense, but also a oneness with all that is and ever will be. I looked at my iPhone to cling something to my mind to I remember thinking "Steve Jobs created the iPhone" & God literally laughed and then that thought fell into the abyss of nothing in comparison to the absolute. I saw my iPhone melt away in front of me. I felt like I wasn't real but a projection God created to experience itself subjectively in this realm. I was shown that, & when I came out I absolutely knew the only reason for my incarnation was to be love. To go out and be a loving light for the world. This whole loop experience was tied to my intention of "humble". I was humbled indefinitely.

11:30pm-1am: After the loop, I went downstairs because the energy in my room was too much to continue to be around. I sat and continued to feel loving bliss on my couch. I went back upstairs to grab my journal & when I entered my room I heard the sound of humming - very similar to a singing bowl hum. I knew the space was very sacred and holy, there was still a lot of energy in the room. When I came back down, I could feel the vibration of love radiating through my house. There is a piece of art my daughter made that hangs in my kitchen- it is a linked set of paper rings, I noticed this swaying side to side ever so slowly. It created a shadow that was moving also - so I know I wasn't just seeing things. I could also see or feel the vibration of love that was making this art move. I believe very strongly in the power of intention & I know the loving intention she put into making that was connecting to the loving intention that had fully entered my space. I had a really hard time sleeping. The energy was just really really high. I fell asleep around 4 or 5am for a little while and woke up at exactly 8:07am. I am still integrating a lot and will likely make a follow up post on integration. Thank you so much for reading. Xo.